Who am I 

When you lose …you

If someone were to ask you “Who are you?” How would you respond? This question has haunted me for a long, long time, because I do not know-who…I…am.

I’m sure when put on the spot I would casually say, “Well, I’m Missy. I’m Mark’s wife, Sam & Austins mom, Connors grandma.” Then I am sure you’d say, “Yes you are all of those things, but WHO…ARE…YOU?

I’d probably say something like, “Well, I’m a wife, a mom, a grandma….” You’d stop me and say, “NO… who are you?”

I’d say, “I love to cook and bake, I love to help people. I’m sometimes a people person, sometimes a loner…” You’d say, “I did not ask you what you do, I asked you WHO-ARE-YOU???
I’d probably stare blankly at you now, because the answer to that question is one I do not know. Even writing this I struggle with the answer. I stress over the fact that if anyone were to ever REALLY ask me that question, it’s scary to say I STILL won’t know how to answer.

How do I find the answer? Can anyone really answer that question? And if they can…why can’t I? Where lies the answer to this deep question? Then, out of no where into my mind pops the song “Who am I” by Casting Crowns. God hears us, He hears our cries, He knows exactly what we need-exactly when we need it.

It lies where I knew it lied all along. I guess I don’t really need to know the answer, who am I? Because God knows who I am. That needs to be good enough for me.  Just breathe…



American Dream

Casting Crowns is one of my FAVORITE Christian bands! Today I am quickly reminded of this one song I absolutely love! Today my emphasis is all about not chasing the almighty dollar. About pouring yourself into what truly matters. About focus. About priorities.

Why are we never satisfied with what we have? Why do we always want more? Why is it that we never have enough? Why are we never happy?

This song starts out about a little boy who JUST wants his dad…time…not a new toy, a new video game….time. But the dad says “Not this time son, there’s no time to waste….maybe tomorrow we will have time to play”…then he slips into his new BMW and drives away. Did you catch a very important word there? He said there is no time to WASTE. I don’t know about you but I don’t think spending quality time with family is a “waste”…

It goes on to show how he continues to chase the American Dream… Works all day and tries to sleep at night….but can’t. He’s building his “castle” on sand….the wind and waves come crashing in….how long will his “castle” stand? Probably not long.

Back to his son… “Daddy can you please come to my game?” His wife says “Baby please don’t work late…” But he wastes yet another weekend…. Once it’s gone it’s gone. But he tells them…just wait, things will get better I just need a little more time. Some people never learn.

It then says that whoever dies with the most toys wins, but if he loses his soul what has he gained in the end? Last time I checked you don’t get to take your “toys” with you. But what you CAN do is leave a lasting legacy behind with your family. Create moments today that will stick with your family forever. Make memories and create traditions that will be passed down from generation to generation.

Now back to the man who was working sooooo hard….he is still going to sleep at night, lying awake wondering when things will get better…. But it looks like he’s running out of time. 🎶cause he worked and he built with his own two hands and he poured all he had in a castle made with sand, but the wind and the waves are coming crashing in, time will tell just how long his kingdom stands…🎶 as for me, I’d take a shack on a rock over a castle in the sand anyday.

All they ever wanted was …..him